I can honestly say that I feel like I've been hit by a ton of bricks. I can't sleep. Food has lost taste. An hour just doesn't go by the same way it did before... Before what? Before a force of nature shifted things in my life. Before this person came into my life. Whether it's too early to tell, or it's just the logical/realist thoughts I have lingering around that brain of mine, I'm trying so hard to take caution. But as much as I try to hold back and stay grounded there is a feeling that's been growing inside me for days now. Is all that stuff you read about or see in the movies actually possible? Is this what I think it could be? Again, it may be too soon to define what it is. But it's definitely something.
Something powerful. Something in the making. Something life changing. Something I've been waiting for. Something I wasn't sure existed.
It came out of left field...After a weekend that had already lifted me so high, there was this hand reaching out to me. At first it was lent in guidance, like a friend granting a nice gesture. But within a few days it had transformed, gaining more momentum each day, each hour, each minute. And now it has become a force that knows no bounds.
There have been more times in the past week I've felt 'weak in the knees' than I can ever remember happening so sudden and so continuously. Could this be real? How will I know? Is this an addiction? Because I feel physically drained from this drug. But I still want more. I'm left always wanting more except that this time it's different than any other time before. The more is right there with me. The more is outdoing me. The more is bringing me warmth. And comfort. And bursts of emotion. And hope of what could be. And hope of what life should be. And the faith that fate truly does work in mysterious ways.
All that's left is what's to come.
And I just can't wait anymore.
Until then, I only exist to see him.
my photo of the day... represents a mindset we should all work towards. This picture to me represents beauty, peace, and calm. 
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